israel’s Blog

who would have thought that an afternoon coffee break at trinoma will be so interesting? hmmm. here at my back is a couple who are so sweet to each other. while at my front, is a couple who are arguing. well people are so colorful. sometimes i think what color am i, when you look at it in a bigger picture. ^-^ (knocks me off my feet background music)

well, speaking of love. i dont have any lovelife for now. wow! pangulong kadiwa is going cheesy! (lolz) maybe i should say that my heart doesnt need somebody right now. work & church duties are consuming most of my time. maybe someday if God permits it, he will show the one whos destined for me. so maybe a year or two of being single might not hurt, (even a bit)?)

i do remember that i saw “her”. in an instant, i felt that “thing” that i had thought disappeared, along when she transferred to another locale. sadly, i still love her, and i do know that my heart still belongs to her. but i love myself even more. at least i know my real score with her, at least that knowledge can feed my pride. its always good to know, that your effort wasnt in vain. its just i’d waited so long, that my heart became numb when it saw the words that it longs for.

Remember the saying “ even a heart the loves truly, will wither itself, if the other one takes it for granted”. in my case, that is so true. i do love her. i’ve waited for her for a long period of time, sadly, by the time she spoke those words, it came empty when it reached me.

Lesson in love? there is no such thing as a constant love,. Love is never Love when there is no risk. its the same way that you cant teach your heart who it should fall for.

Im thankful for the people, whos accompanying me right now in this journey. some disappeared, while someone new came along.. old friends are always there, while new friends keeps me up.

For the last^^. if someone comes along who’se destined for me, how i wish you would knock at my heart. i want to welcome you while im ready, if you see me in a busy state, would you please stand in front of me, and say how miserable life is, if i dont have anybody to share my pain and success in life. 

im keeping my heads up. i’ll wait for that person., after all “there is no mess that i clean, and no love is a riddle, when i put my heart & mind into it”